Just popping by to check out some of your lovely writing! I'm a big fan of an angsty Remus/Tonks story, so I knew this was right up my alley!
Oh man was this angsty! Poor Tonks! It must be so tough for her to watch the man she loves be in love with someone else. I know I've been there before and you just drive yourself mad looking for the littlest sign of interest. The way she ran through all of their interactions was so realistic.
I also thought it was really sad how she compared herself to Sirius so much! Like I know she's wasting away looking for Remus' affections, but if he's as obviously in love with Sirius as it sounds like he is, maybe it's time for her to move on. I mean she's only hurting herself chasing someone who's unavailable.
The little prayer that she keeps repeating to herself is so sad. It's so hard for the mind to convince the heart it's wrong. She knows this is bad for her mental health. She wants it to end, but ultmiately, she just can't let him go. It really made my heart ache for her.
I really liked how you wrote this as well. Usually Tonks is so light and upbeat, but the fact that you've written her in such a somber manner really shows just how down she is.