Hey, Rumple! I remember this fic from the old archives and have been searching for it for a good one to two hours there. I couldn't remember who wrote it, but I thought there might be a character option for Eileen in the search menu here, and there was!!!
I love how we get to see Snape as he was when he was a child, before the bitter man we know him as in the books. So many kids find themselves in households like this, and it affects them their entire lives. This really makes me want to write my own spin on the concept here. People focus so much on Snape's relationship with Lily, but I love (well, not love, but you know what I mean) seeing stories about his childhood. It gives you a sense of how he came to be who he was. He never got real love at home, even from his mother, who cared about him I'm sure, but had so much to deal with on her own with Tobias and the abuse...it's just such a horrible situation and really explains how he latched onto Lily, and how he was so easy to minipulate into joining the Death Eaters, being someone who found it so hard to get acceptance.
I just really adore when people take the time to write about how characters grew up to be who they are, which is why I like writing missing moment stories so much myself, even when it's sad.
Anyway, I loved this story. Again, not loved as in it being happy, but you know. Sev tried so hard, and it's heartbreaking to see what he got for it.
I hope you have a great New Years, and start feeling better, since you've said you've had difficulty lately. Thanks for all you've done on the old forums and the new one!
This started out like such a cute and fluffy story, and then... this ending killed me... poor, little Severus, he put so much effort into it, he just wanted to make his mum smile...
The Severus you show in here is such a cute, innocent and sweet child. I loved the opening scene, the way he lingered at the window, so full of wonder for the Christmas lights. I also loved your descriptions, beautiful as always. The Christmas atmosphere, the snow falling, the carolers singing. It's magical, especially for a child, especially for a child leaving in an environment like this.
Tobias' unmotivated fits of rage were so awful to read, the effect of them on both Eileen and Severus so heartbreaking. The way Severus hid away, trying to not be seen or heard, scared that his father's shouts would make the house crumble down... no one should feel that way, not about one of their parents, not about anyone, actually.
This was another wonderful piece by you. You made me smile and then made me almost cry and your writing is just stunning. I wanted to hug Severus tight the whole time, you gave such a beautiful picture of him as a child, you captured his thoughts and feelings so wonderfully.
So much love to you, dear Rumpels.
A drop of Amortentia.
:/ I know, I wanted to show some of the home life that Severus had to endure as a child, while capturing that innocence that Canon implied for the time. It was a very sad piece to write but Snape has always been a favorite character of mine and I wanted to explore his early life a little bit, despite how dark it gets in the end.
Thank you so much!
Snape is one of my least favorite characters in the series.
This story made me feel so, so sorry for him. Like, the story made me feel sorry for him, but then the last two paragraphs literally just made my soul want to cry.
Amazing job. I'm so, so glad you're back - and that I keep coming across your stories in the queue!
Ahhhhhhh! Branwen! *Squish* I feel like I haven't had a conversation wtih you in forever! *squishes* I'm really glad to see you -- these archives look amazing, btw!
<3 I'm glad you liked the story, especially given your stance on Snape. I'm also sorry/not sorry that the final paragraphs hurt your soul! This one was hard for me to write, so I'm especially happy that the 'sad' came through!
Thanks so much for popping in to leave a review (and for validating the stories)! We'll have to chat very soon!